work

A whole load of things happened these past 2 months. Especially in August. To swallow it all in, took a whole load out of me. Things changed personally, emotionally, work-wise, relationship-wise….. hmmmpphhhh. Though most of it are changes for the better, it is still a lot to absorb.

And what I wanna blab about today is… work. I *almost* lost heart (is that how u translate takde hati??) at the current company I am in. *sigh*. Some events occured, even though with the new project won, my immediate boss is leaving.. sob sob! The boss who NEVER calls and asks where I am when it is 11 a.m. and I am not in yet, the boss who just lets me handle things whichever way I deem the best, the boss who doesn’t care how long I take my lunch breaks or how early I leave the office, just as long as I get my work done. The boss who taught me how to learn and taught me soooo much, work-wise, industry-wise, survival in the rat-race world and such; much more in the past 2 years than I could learn in 5.

He won’t let me leave, as now he wants me to learn about what happens AFTER we get a project. All these while I’ve only been doing PRE work. But how???? I wouldn’t have the slightest idea how to handle and manage the whole project by myself. I wouldn’t have anyone to argue with and retaliate when I don’t agree about something. I wouldn’t have my ’sifu’ who I could turn to and get advice from whenever I need it!!!

Furthermore, with my current condition, I have no idea whether I would be able to handle this by myself. To travel. To do this, almost alone. I don’t really have the heart here anymore. But to find another job, now??? With puasa and Raya coming along, it is DEFINITELY gonna be hard. Maybe I just need to be patient. As for now, I am handling the trial for this project. Very tiring, but it gets me out of the office for the whole week. And I’m freezing my tush in this server room, listening to my Taiwanese principal explaining the system management software to our client, who’s asking every possible question and scenarios. A lot like chickens talking to ducks, with the language barrier and all. I am staying well out of it all hahahaha. Hey I’m just supposed to ‘learn’ and supervise!

Sacrifices, sacrifices. Patience, my young padawan. My time will surely come, and better things will come my way

Optimists live longer, have u heard?